when I was younger I did speech therapy. In elementary school I struggled with math and English. Before I started middle school I did testing and it came out that I had a specific learning disability. After this I had co-taught math and language arts classes through high school.
in elementary school I interacted with people named, Charlie, Brandon, Andrew, Michael, Kyle, and other names that I can’t remember. In middle school probably the person I interacted with the most Charlie went to a different middle school. I meet probably the person I interacted the most even though it’s not often John. I always the quite kid in class. In high school I interacted with John, Charlie, and other people. But these interactions never turned into true friendships that I hangout with them outside of school besides John and Charlie. In college I started off at a college an hour away from my hometown. I didn’t talk to anyone besides my roommates. I went to class and stayed in the room and laid in bed. I went to that college for 1 and 1/2 years. Then I went to a commuter college that was 50min away from my house and stayed at home and took the bus down to class. Since it was a commuter college i interacted with other people but it didn’t turn into friendships.
my last semester of school was last fall and my anxiety and depression got worse. I asked for likes on my twitter account and instagram account. this started happening in 2016 when I started school at the commuter college but it got worse last year. Because I didn’t make friendships in school I use social media to interact with other people besides my parents, my parents friends, family, and kids. When people don’t like my posts I feel that they don’t like me because I feel they aren’t interacting with me.
because of my anxiety and depression got worse I started meeting with an psychiatrist and decided to get tested. In April I got my results back and I’m on the autism spectrum, intellectual disability, anxiety, and depression. That’s my story
Thanks for sharing Jace! I’m sure you‘ve through alot. Even for us non-spectrum people it’s really hard to make lasting relationships. People come and go from life so quickly. We’re all too busy - I think it’s a good reminder for everyone to try to slow down and appreciate the people we love.